A Sample Reading Fom A Young Lady's Diary

A while back a friend entrusted me with numerous volumes of her diaries dating back to 1976.

I’m honored.

Since I remain in confusion about my own work, recently I’ve begun transcribing the hand-written text into my computer. Tedious work but worth the effort; it’s likely to take a year or two before it’s ready for publication.

Here’s a sample page followed by my transcription from manuscript to type:

December 10, 1980

Father, I am so tired. Somehow it is a tiredness that goes before doing anything. It brings a sense of futility.

Is it really all right that I am so—I don’t even know the word—but I see others who are capable and I am not.

My child, I never ask you to be capable of doing anything that I do not equip you to do.

True, Father, I must seek to know Your will for me so I may know what You want me to be capable of. But how will I know, Lord?

Live close to Me. Abide in My commandments. Come to Me often in prayer. Surrender your life to Me moment by moment. And when you look back, you will see. You do not need to worry about knowing ahead of time. Just obey Me in each present moment.

O Lord, I give You my life today. I praise You because You are the God of all, the creator, Redeemer, Sanctifier, the Empowerer. In You, from You and through You, my life has meaning. Forgive my concentration on the things I can’t do. Forgive me my refusal in the past to do things I could have done. And guide me into each step You have prepared for me to walk in.